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I initially intended to isolate myself at Borders tonight, without the connection of the Internet and without hanging out with friends. (In Champaign, we have to pay for the Internet at Borders. I refuse to pay for this while I can get free wireless somewhere else). Yes, sounds like a lonely freak. Although I like to get together with people so much, I still need to hide myself and be alone sometime. It turns out a surprising afternoon and night. I still stayed at Borders, as I planned. People come and go as I sit and read and type, but somehow I run into several friends from afternoon to night. This makes me feel I am not totally hide and isolated. It’s alright since I also found a dilemma inside my heart. From one side, I determined to hide myself tonight, but from another side, I desired a company, no matter in what form. I, Sort of enforce myself stay here with unwillingness. Their showing comforts me a little bit, it might be a remedy or reward of not going somewhere first time at Friday night, I think.

At last, another surprise appears, tonight at Borders, many people come out to here. With this cold weather, I wondered firstly. Next I realized that I am lucky because a live jazz singing group come to perform at Borders Cafe. It seems tonight is their album release party. Ha, what a lucky day! I enjoyed the music instead of study finally.


------ Sorry to my dear friends who care about me,

I thought there is no value of keeping my blog open because it looks like almost-to-none people visited here. It seems much easier to close it. But I just realize that closing my blog makes you guys worry about me more. I thank you for asking me and caring about me, and I’m sorry for doing this. I will keep write something about my life, my thoughts, and my sharing with you, my dear friends. Next time if I wanted to close my blog again, I will let you know in advance. Let you at least not worry about me. =)

With my best wishes,
Meiyi